i I don't even know anymore. Who am i? Is it even worth capitalizing that i? Am i even that important? I never had to talk about it until today.. It was hard. No one has ever asked me. "Why did you try it?" It's not me, honestly. I can feel myself leave. I'm in a fog. It comes over me without a warning. And with it comes tears. And more tears. I hate it. "You're just trying to escape?" "Yeah.. that's why I sleep so much. I don't cry when I'm asleep."